Getting Back into a Good Habit

I have been reflecting over the last few weeks and it had me thinking. I've been wanting to get back into writing and actualizing what potential I possess.  I have realized that I've been putting off things that I want to do because I've used my mental health issues as an excuse.  I'm not proud of this, and I want to do better for myself. I'm a mother, a wife, a daughter, and an aunt.  I am not doing anyone any favors by letting my issues be a negative crutch.  I want to be a better Quinn for those that I have chosen to be part of my life, but most of all, I need to stop focusing on the negatives that have stopped me from living my best life.

Making statements such as these are easy to say, but it is a whole another kettle of fish to put thoughts into motion.  Actions do speak louder than words, and my actions as of lately belie the thoughts I've had.  So I am going to make the attempt to write a post maybe once a week, as a starting point.  I do not want to get overwhelmed and just not do it.  On a side note, anxiety messes with creativity, so it can be a real pisser trying to write something when you actually want to write something.  I have a real issue with getting ahead of myself with some of my plans.  Therefore, it just makes more sense for me to take baby steps.  Start off with a doable goal, and then go from there.

So yeah, I am hoping that this will be the beginning of something good to get back into.  As my grandmother always said, one day at a time.  If you can't handle a day, try an hour.  It works, and it is something I tried to live my life by.  It may be a challenge, but life is all about reaching for the brass ring.  If it was easy, it would not be as rewarding when you achieved your goals.  Life is not about the participation prizes.  It's hard work, and the constant changes that you make to better yourself.