I May Have to Seek Other Employment
I have been losing hours at my job. It sucks, because I am sure other people are having the same problem. But I'm a 42 year old woman. I am not some high schooler who doesn't have many bills to worry about. They are happily living with their parents and not worrying about paying for everything. They also don't have to worry about paying child support. Yes, I do pay it, even though my ex is probably blasting me and calling me a deadbeat. I gladly pay child support, knowing that my kids are being taken care of.
But put those together and that means I'm not making enough to be able to live comfortably. It's quite sad. I know others are struggling. Some people I know are considering getting 2nd and 3rd jobs, depending on who it is. But I only have the one job, because the Hubbeast won't get his full SSI if I work too many hours. Work too few hours, and there is a probability that things will be harder to take care of. No, I'm not looking for pity. I knew he was sick when I got with him. I was willing to be with him anyway. I was just hoping to find a good job now that I'm not under someone's thumb. Instead, I'm working fast food, and I feel disrespected.
As you can tell, I'm still a bit angry after writing my last post. I'm bitter about things that have been dumping all over me, and it is not a good place to be in. I don't really have a healthy relationship with anger. Sure, not many people do. But when I get angry, it's not long after that I start bawling. Like I said, not healthy.
I also feel like I'm missing out on things all because I have all these obligations. For example, did you know that if you have more than $2500 in arrears, you can't get a passport? I want to be able to take a cruise, or go to Ireland. Sadly, I can't because I can't afford to pay all the arrears off at once, because I have a sucky job. Therefore, it is time for me to consider my options and try to find employment elsewhere.
Wish me luck, y'all. Much love, dearies.
Small victories and fluffy bunnies