2 Days of Suck

Friday was interesting. I had to go to court to talk with someone about visitation with my kids and ask about what would happen if and when my ex filed for child support.  Before I went to the courthouse, I had lunch at a local shoppe that usually sells milk and ice cream (they serve breakfast and lunch during the week).  I was stuffed from a really awesome cordon bleu chicken sandwich.  Huge.  Other than that, it sucked.  Bedtime came and I couldn't sleep.  I was finally able to fall asleep at 7:00am this morning.

Today, it really sucked.  I had gotten a letter from my fiancé Will.  I may not get to see him for quite a while.  Well, I haven't been able to for some time, because of some legal issues that Will has to sort through.  The wedding has to be postponed until we are able to be together, and the way things are looking, it won't be for a long time.  I will be lucky if I get to see him on the days when I'm not working.  I'm deeply depressed about this.  But I love him enough that I will push forward with whatever needs to be done.

But at this point, I'm just disgusted that anytime things sound like they are going to turn around for the better, it ends up not being the case.  I just want things to be kosher.  I'm tired of fighting for my fair share.  Nothing has ever been easy.  It sucks.