Feeling Loneliness

Let's see.  It has been 4 days since I last wrote an entry.  Life has mostly been about work.  Not much else going on these days.

However, yesterday I was really depressed.  I feel lonely almost everyday.  My kids live their father now, so they aren't with me.  That's part of it.  The other part is that I miss my fiancé Will.  My grandparents wouldn't let him live with me at their house (where I'm currently staying), and even with that, seeing him is hard because of some things he has to take care of (legal issues).  With everything that has happened to me, I just felt stuck.  I keep thinking that just when things are going right for a change, something bad unexpectedly comes up and I have to deal with the aftermath.  I've had to fight for everything I have, and even then, it's still hard to keep positive when bad stuff happens all the time.  There are just some days when I want to give up, but it's only for a few minutes.  In my heart, there is no point in giving up, because that is cowardly.

The loneliness still sucks though.  And until I can see Will again, it will be hard to deal with.  But it's only temporary.